19 May The Madame’s Bone Oracle Reading 05.19.20
The Spirits chose WATER, SEEKER, and MASK from The Madame’s Bone Oracle this morning.
WATER: Relationships, Emotions, Healing, Emotional Being
SEEKER: Self, Ego, Querent, Within
MASK: Perception, things aren’t as they appear, deception
Today’s message piggy-backs on yesterday’s: Don’t mask your feelings with your ego. It’s about vulnerability and accountability. With WATER showing up first as it did yesterday, we know this message relates to emotions and relationships. SEEKER is ourselves, but in this reading specifically, our egos – our sense of self identity and self importance. MASK is in the literal sense today – one thing hidden behind something else.
Scenario A: someone close to you says something insensitive to you that hurts your feelings. Sensitivity makes you feel vulnerable to more hurt, so you puff out your chest and tell them to fuck right off, as if you’re angry instead of hurt, letting your pride MASK your true feelings. So their ego gets the best of them, and they walk off angry too. You think about that interaction all day, and go to bed with a lump in your throat and a knot in your belly. Your next interaction with that person is tense and now each interaction after leads to a bigger gap and a higher wall, and before you know it, the relationship is severed and you’ve gone your separate ways.
Scenario B: someone close to you says something insensitive to you that hurts your feelings. You respond with “why would you say that? That’s very hurtful.” They respond with “sorry, I’m really frustrated today and I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.” You ask what’s going on in their life, they share, you get closer.
You see how the scenario changes when you are vulnerable? You hold space for someone else to be vulnerable too. Let’s be honest, the world we have created makes it difficult to be sensitive. We’re taught from a young age to suck it up and buckle up. We learn ways to MASK our vulnerability, and that leads to anxiety because we are constantly trying to MASK our true feelings. Facades are a lot of work! It takes courage to remain sensitive in a harsh environment. If we each remove our MASK – being vulnerable and allowing others their vulnerability without taking advantage of it – we create a world where vulnerability is not a liability, but an asset. Let me also stress that being vulnerable is not a lack of self confidence, self worth, self esteem, or personal boundaries. And anger is a righteous emotion at times – but if you find that you are always angry, it’s probably just a MASK for a more vulnerable emotion, like grief, sadness, or fear. Using one emotion to MASK another just leads to confusion in relationships, and makes for great bricks to build walls. Allow the element of WATER to erode those walls today.